Stand off with Dark
Through much of my lifetime, up until the begining of this year. I haven't been comfortable with the Dark that lives within me - anger and sad feelings, etc.
In the past when I felt the Dark rising within me, I would push it down, pretend that I was fine and distract myself to numbness.
Earlier this year, triggered by old feelings, I allowed them to take over me. It felt as though good and evil were fighting it out inside me. Squeezing me hard.
The evil fighting was a 'false self', the voice that told me I'm not good enough, or pretty enough, or worthy of being happy... It was trying to take over. I didn't try and put a mask on, I let it be known that I was fighting the Dark... and let them see it.
I did not run away.
And now I have come out the otherside. The Dark has passed, and I am stronger for it. I am still here - knowing that I have been given a second chance to live the life I want and deserve. Knowing that I am strong enough to fight should the Dark ever rise again. Knowing that I am worthy and enough.
I have grown immesurably from my stand off with the Dark. And I no longer fear it.